Expectations

I finally spoke to my long lost friend, J…
I am struggling to find the words to explain how I feel about how our conversations have been going.  I’m struggling with the feelings I’m having.  I’m struggling with what to do next.  In a nutshell, my expectations have not been met.  And I’m not entirely sad [...]

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An Answered Prayer?

This is an update to some old posts, Findng the Courage and The Infamous Letter, a letter that I never sent.
When I checked my email this morning, I scanned over my inbox like I usually do.  I saw a message from Facebook telling me someone had sent me a message, which I thought was from [...]

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Am I Really That Old?

I attended the first Society for Future Teachers meeting last night.  I am officially a member!  I’m very proud of myself, as I didn’t know a soul there but made myself go anyway.  I walked into the room and it was complete chaos.  I put my purse down in the spot I intended to sit [...]

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Starting All Over Again

I have officially started school.  Again.  I had my first intro to teaching class yesterday.  Needless to say, I’m very nervous.  Excited, but really really nervous.  When the instructor informed us that we were required to have 30 hours of logged classroom time this semester in addition to our regular class time, I started to panic [...]

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She Has Breast Cancer…Again

My grandma officially has breast cancer.
Again.
She goes for an MRI on Monday, a consultation when the results come back, and then surgery to remove any surrounding tissue that may contain the disease.  The MRI will tell her if it has spread and where she needs to have tissue removed. 
This is so hard. 
So far, it’s not [...]

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Social Phobia?

I have recently come to realize that I have a real problem.  Whether or not it is a mental disorder or just something inside of me, I don’t really know.  All I do know is that I want it to stop.
I am afraid that I have Social Phobia. 
Social phobia is an intense fear of becoming [...]

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A Full Plate

I was listening to Dr. Laura on the way home from work yesterday and an 11-year old girl called in, crying.  First off, why was an 11-year old girl calling Dr. Laura?  On the radio?  Anyway, she continued to softly cry while asking Dr. Laura if she should feel guilty and heartless for not wanting her [...]

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Counting My Blessings

I received a phone call from my mom last night, just after 10:30.  I said out loud to my husband, “I hate when she calls me this late.”  It almost always means there’s something wrong…
My grandmother has a small lump in her breast. 
At first, I was relieved.  Not as bad as I had expected.  But then all [...]

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Madonna, Here I Come!

I am SO EXCITED!
I enrolled in school last week!  I am officially registered for classes at Madonna University.  My ultimate goal is to become a reading teacher (or “specialist”, as the department keeps telling me it’s called).  I’m starting out part time since I have to work full time.  They are concerned that since I’ve been [...]

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Fulfilled by Stimulation

I was raised by a single mom and grew up in a low income mobile home park with my younger brother.  My mother did the best she could to provide for us and worked a full time job at a fast food restaurant, so she was rarely home to cook us dinner or help us with our homework, as [...]

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