This is an update to some old posts, Findng the Courage and The Infamous Letter, a letter that I never sent.
When I checked my email this morning, I scanned over my inbox like I usually do. I saw a message from Facebook telling me someone had sent me a message, which I thought was from someone I worked with. When I eventually began checking my emails, I realized who the message was actually from.
I immediately began to cry. The message was from my long lost friend, J, who I had been searching for for years. I read her message over and over. It was short and simple, but at that moment, it seemed like it went on forever. She said that she thought she recognized my brother in my profile picture and wondered if it could actually be me. She said she’d like to catch up sometime. I was shaking. I didn’t know what to say so I just started typing. I told her I had been looking for her for years and asked her to call me. That’s it. (I didn’t want to come across too pathetic! :)
I’m curious to know what she’s thinking. She was obviously thinking about me or she wouldn’t have gone through the trouble to look for me. I have searched for her multiple times but never came up with anything. I searched again today to see what I would find and her picture came up immediately. She must be new to Facebook.
Anyway, it’s a very odd thing that I’m feeling. Almost like a prayer has been answered. I feel like everything is new again; like everything in my life is finally going to work itself out (No, it’s not because Nobama was elected president). As I’ve stated in past posts, I don’t make friends easily. I struggle to open up and allow people in. With J, it was different. There was an understanding; a true friendship that you don’t just find anywhere. She complimented me and I complimented her. I’m nervous that my expectations are going to be way too high; things are obviously going to be different than they used to be, that’s a given. But how different? What should I expect? What shouldn’t I expect?
As I muddle through these very unorganized thoughts, I am anxiously waiting to hear from her.
Stay tuned…
