I had another meltdown last night. I am SO tired. SO burned out. What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to cope with all of this? The stress is overwhelming. I actually said “I give up” last night. He got the best of me. He took what faith I had left & threw it out the window. This constant battle between Good and Evil is really taking its toll on me. I know God wants me to be strong. I know He wants me to give it one more day. But Satan is so close, knocking on the door, INSISTING on being let in. I just don’t know if I have the strength to fight him anymore. The pain is just too much. The hurt I feel inside envelops me. That person I want so badly to be seems further away than ever. I feel like I’m on a small row boat, constantly trying to row to shore, but the more I row, the bigger the waves get; the further away from shore they take me. The person I love most is barely visible anymore. I’m alone and frightened.
God, please hurry, quick! I know you hear my prayer; my plea for help. Please help me to see the way; help me to gain the strength; help me to find the faith. In Jesus’s name, Amen.
A Prayer I found on www.faithmag.com:
Dear Jesus, you healed so many people who were afflicted and suffering. My Lord, I come to you like Jairus who pleaded for the life of his little girl, or the woman who believed she would be healed if she could touch just the tassel of your garment. I come to you in faith and believe firmly that you can heal me. I pray Lord that I may receive whatever grace is needed in my life to draw closer to you. Help me, Lord , to accept the grace of healing in whatever form it takes. Help me to believe firmly and to trust that you are here to help and save us. Look with mercy on those who are suffering Lord, and bring them your help. Amen.
